wee. i'm back.

just took brian's quiz. tho he put it up so long ago. hahaa. and i failed it terribly. how am i suppose to know his feet size is smaller than mine..

hm. sis just called. isetan's having a sale. haha.

should i go meet her? but i've got nth to wear since everythings in the wash after coming back from malaysia.

think i should. better than sitting here in front of the com.

wear tt skirt i bought from brisbane and avoid escalators.

looks like i'm going to miss the 9 o'clock show again. suppose to blog bout meridian and malaysia. haha. another time i guess..

till then..

went to the zoo today~ to see the elephants, cats, monkeys. like what else do you do there anyway.

but i am so in love with the cats. seeing the cats was what i was most looking forward to. hahaa. and they were the nicest~~ plus the polar bears. at least to me la. haha. the white tigers were soo beautiful.

after that we headed out to the airport to go send celia off. but then i didnt get to stand at the departure gates there and wave and stufff.. i didnt even get to eat dinner with them before that. haha. cause my mom actually called and asked me to go home and check if she switched off the stove. =.= she couldnt rmb if she switched it off after boiling some soup. but my mind was like telling me its switched off. who can leave the house with the stove on anyway.

but on my way home i was thinking like what if she really didnt off it and the house is on fire. hahaa. tt would be one of the saddest day of my life. it was highly unlikely anyway. for a whole house to catch fire in half an hour plus from an unsupervised pot of boiling soup.

but now thinkign about it, at least i know my rabbit wouldnt be cooked, since he's outside.

he seemed quite wary of me when i got near. maybe its cause i have all the zoo smells.. haha.

then later on i left the water heater on for too long. and my parents got back and my dad started getting grumpy bout it.

if you keep leaving the heater on so long it uses electricity know? and all this engery comes from oil! if you keep using it how is oil prices going to go down??

or sooomething like that. but he was saying something about how everyone actually has enough to use but if everyone wants a bit more then i didnt hear what he said after that. he actually said quite a lot. basically his point being stop leaving the heater on for so long, i guess. probably got extra pissed since its not the first time. for my sis esp. maybe he thot it was my sis again who left it on too for too long. wops.=X

then after that he was getting grumpy and worked up about some other stuff again. probably work. theres hardly a day he doesnt get grumpy nowadays.

and money in my wallet is disappearing so fast this holidays!!! aaAh. everyday i spend by the tens. damnit man. soon i'll have no more savings. and i havent even bought a pair of jeans. or cut my hair.

i need to slp............

brr.

finally sth worth blogging when the computer's available. when i have something to blog about, the com's not available. then the next day comes, and i no longer feel like blogging it. so finally the com's available at the right time! haha.

i went ice skating today!!!

i so wanna go again. but its alllll the way across our sunny island in jurong.

i picked up quite steadily, but maybe its only because i can rollerblade.. a notch. all the kissing the floor, grazing my knees, landing on the butt and sliding across the park road in the old days... it had better come to some good use. which it kinda did, if ice skating is counted as good use.

but the highlight of this post.. is that i fell! hahaa. not exactly fell as in with a loud painful thud with the ice and limbs flying in all directions, but this woman. lady. girl. whatever. was right in front of me with her arms all stretched out and she didnt seem to be moving anywhere, taking up all the space she wanted. and its not like shes some small little girl whos relatively easier to dodge, or whos going to notice that im about to bump into her. and she just decided to stop there with her arms everywhere.

i was skating slow, and kinda just ended up right behind her outstretched arm and her. i slowed down and stopped riight before i bumped into her arm and shoulder and whatnots. then i was kinda stuck there with my both hands in front of me, swaying back and forth, not knowing whats going to happen next. i couldnt possibly grab onto her to stabalise myself and i kinda half anticipated tt i'll move forward a little and bump into her.. and she was so close, like right in my face.. that it kinda frightened me.

so naturally i lost my balance and landed backwards on the ice. on my hands or sth. but i rmb tt i ended up sitting on the cold ice. then i couldnt get up from that squat position, cause the skate boots were too stiff for me to lean forward. and this guy came along, gave me a hand and went off. haha. from the ice hockey team.. im guessing, from the way they were training. man. i hope i didnt look stupid. aha. but whatever.

but all along i thot he was quite okay looking, probably from what he was wearing and stuff la really. since i couldnt quite make out his face, with that white specs on it especially. and compared to all the other ppl there and his hockeymates. and of ALL the people in the rink to give me a hand, i even rmb vaguely tt this other guy, probably his teammate, was standing nearby, HE was the one who zoomed by and gave me a hand. aahaaha.

probably because no one else was bothered to notice i might need help la really. but it was still rather nice of him. and of all ppl. haha. my sis was at the other side of the rink and didnt even see me land on the ice la. so when we were packing up i told her i thot hes quite okay looking. and it made me feel.. urm. funny. haha. like my heart skipped a beat.. and i can hear it beating or sth. sth i havent felt for quite a long time really. hahaa. its like a feeling tt makes you can't help but smile.

but my sis said he looks funny. dwitty. tweedy. or dunno what funny word she used. haha. which is probably true since i didnt quite take a good look.

oh well. haha. so tho it was on false impressions, its still rather nice..

packet drinks are poisonous..

i swear it must have been the lemon barley. and the packet looked quite battered when i got it too. if that has anything to do with it.

t'was a thurs...
i couldnt finish the dirnk in time for the am mock paper so i left it on the table tts near the hall entrance. but letting it sit there for 2 hours before finishing it was probably why my stomache felt sick after drinking it. somehow felt like gastric pangs. but since when did drinks rot in 2 hours. really don't think it could be anything else before that..

so i got home and slept. i ate some dinner, which would be a few spoonfuls of rice and soup, mainly so that i could take some indigestion pills. i regurgitated them out with my dinner after that anyway.

i puked 2 more times after that, which would be my lunch and all that cursed lemon barley drink. had a throbbing headache from then onwards.. and i really mean throbbing cause i could feel the beating in my head..

i woke up the next morning and the world.. specifically the toilet, was a blur. and my ears were blocked. thot i was going blind and had some disease. haha.. couldnt walk properly either. so i landed on my mom's bed after getting out of her toilet. was really scary cause i thot i was going to black out. but people, that was just symptoms of low blood glucose levels, so i read in a magazine not long just now.. it included breaking out in cold sweat.

Pocari was pretty much a life saver. and it was canned!! i'm never going to trust packet drinks again. and my mom made me down some molasses drink.

hahaa. and i was telling my sis, " jie, i think i've got brain damage.."

hey, i had a fever during the night, which got me thinking it damaged my brain.. haha.

and i puked again that friday morning, puked out that lil bit of fluid that was in my stomach.

then i headed out all the way to yishun with my mom to see my aunt. whos a doc be the way.. it was a pretty bad journey cause we missed our busstop, and all the while i had a spliting headache and was feeling dizzy.

my aunt gave me some horrid tasting gooey drink that's suppose to be good for hydrating my body.. plus some funny shaped pills.. and i regurgitated them out too..

then my mom brought me out to eat some soya beancurd. and guess what! i puked it out after that too. thank god for plastic bags.. or more like whoever who invented them. haha.. so its thank plastic bag inventors for plastic bags..

anyway finally manage to eat some solid food tt night. not very solid i must say. it was very liquidified porridge, but wasnt too bad cause it was some special porridge rice grains.. or sth like that.

headache and stomache's finallly gone away today evening.. today's stomache had my stomach feeling like a big bad balloon..

all in all, was a very bad experience. two full days put together.. man. hope i didnt lose any mass. but a flatter stomach would have been good.. haha..

oh! ohmygod!

its yimei's birthday!!! ahhaas.

happy birthday yimei~!!!

love ya loadS!!

if she senses my telekinetic powers~~~~~

2 am on a tuesday morning....

focus? i needa miracle.

so much for being late for em P1 last week.

i finished the paper in an hour, probably all due to half my bloodstream full of adreline. then when i checked my paper with the half an hour left, half the answers were wrong. >.<

and half the paper was unchecked. hai. careless mistakes make me feel like diving out of my eleven stories high room window.

*poof*

it just occurred to me that perhaps FOCUS is about all i need.

raAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!

i've been gone for quite a while and the first thing i'm doing on my comeback is screaming.

but that's basically what i'm feeling right now.

i wrote a bloody essay on it!! and all i could say was "money can be used to feed the starving. money can be used to buy medicine for those who need it really badly. money can be used to help the cold and shivering out there."

kay. maybe i said more than that but its bad enough.

i wrote a bloody freaking essay on it.

"money can be used to feed the starving." ahaa. i hope they did weren't listening to that.

[money perse isn't the root of all evil.]

i wrote that in my essay and where the hell did it go. hai.

and i didnt give an overview of the picture. i prepared it but i didnt say it. whywhywhy.

que sara sara. whatever will, be will be. the future's not our's to see...

doesnt quite answer my question but whatever.

anyway the conversation question was "money is the root of all evil. do you agree?"..

yeahyeah.

i don't grab opportunities well enough...



its about time to change and stop procrastinating. its so sick that i find myself finding excuses. but isnt that what we all do.

run away.

maybe thats just what i do.

i should look on the bright side. theres that tiny voice in my head that says maybe i didnt do that badly. although that woman kept frowning.

but i still need to change and have more determination anyway.

ignore this post. =D

i've just found out something that i never knew about myself...

i never write on the line.

hahahas.

for a full two years of writing -and who knows maybe longer than that- i have never written on the line!

aha.. i just find it mind-blowing. couldn't help not blogging it. X/

but its pretty hard to kick the habit.

maybe thats the secret to hanisah's and shida's flawless handwriting... writingontheline..

you know what. i don't know how true it was when i said it's ok. cause perhaps it shouldn't be.

perhaps i should keep my distance.

who knows whats going on in your head.
but you're forgiven cause what's done has been done.
i really mean what i said in the first msg anyway.

figured i dun write very nice stories...

some times i think of it and its freakin amusing.. some times it just pisses me off.

yesterday i went to eastshore hospital to visit wong weijian. he looked kinda weak..

get well soon yea?

first a piece of glass jabbed into your foot, now down with fever after getting bitten by a mosquito...
haha.. leave the hospital alone redy lah. the whole class misses you.





















there's nth hidden. haha..its just a space filler.
my tag board's gone haywire. I really wanted to get my template changed, but was too lazy to get the errors in the new template fixed. so till then.

woosh.

chinese O's is in 9 days time.
not good.


Vogue 05 was good.


other than all my insecurities.


its no wonder why i'm never good with solos.


hmm.


but im working on it. although its not happening very fast.


so Vogue 05 was pretty successful. all thx to the ppl like the alumni- wejian. rickson. vincent. and zat. and joan. theres proably more..


i guess i pretty much overdressed. didnt see it coming. but hey. shima also mah, although she pulled it off very welll.


my fringe was so not suppose to be like this. the hairdresser lah. "its better not to have a parting. cause with one, you'll bald in time to come." just that she said it in chinese. and i didnt know she'll cut so much at the back. =( now i have to wait for it to grow all over again.


anway. kekang!! haha.. i'm reeeally touched. its very nice. i'm still going to post it even if you dun read it. haha.. thanx. like really. thanx. not just for the cup. i think you have helped me in more ways than i ever knew. even though there were bad times. but if there werent the bad times there wouldnt be good times mah right?


my shoutbox is so shouting out.. "evict me!"

from an email reeally long ago...

4e-ians will probably find this familiar..

GEORGE CARLIN post 9-11 (His wife recently died...) Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - gross and mouthy comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent ... and so very appropriate post

9-11. A wonderful Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes......
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or just hit delete.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side. Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

awwful

arggggghs


i've got a teeerrible flu..


i've been rubbing my nose with tissue since morning.... and now its like water dripping out of my nose. feels as though swimming pool water went up my nose. but at least its not blocked, like this afternoon.


sniff


today's physic's wasn't too good. i forgot how to use a couple of formulas. Maybe the flu virus killed half my brain cells. hah, and if only that was the reason.


sniff


better rmb to bring more tissue tmr.


chinese O's is in 2 weeks and 3 days time. like how????? my chinese is so not up to standard.


i think my headache's going away. looks like [fast relief of cold symptoms ] Panadol Cold takes about 4 hours to kick in. but i'm still sniffling.


was just thinking about one of the random things mr chooi was saying during chem lesson

when you're in your 20s you study the opposite gender
when you're in your 30s you study babies
when you're in your 40s you study teenage behavoir
when you're in your 50s

kay, i can't quite rmb what he said after that.


can't imagine what will life be like 40 years down the road. especially for someone who has no idea where life's heading..


study hard first. get into a JC then think about it again? hai.


i think i wanna go TJ. but their uniform is not very nice. hah. can get in then say lah hor. i wonder if it'll be lonely if i go there. don't think ans or yimei wanna go there.

Mother's Day Eve!

i bought my mum a present today! something i've not quite done before.. so i thot it was about time..


really wanted to get one that flowers. but the ones they had at pet safari were so ugly, and the cactuses were so small. so ended up getting a green green fern, with leaves that are really cute, for 9 bucks. i should have bargained. darn.


but just when i was thinking maybe if i complain bout it long enough to my sis, she'll reimburse me.. but even before i got repetitive over it, she said she would! shall actually. i have such a great sis.


hm. i think i might kill myself if my brother notices that i'm blogging and gets about reading my blog. he's unfortunately gaming behind me and the screens beside the com. i hope his game will keep him from noticing whats on the com screen.


wouldn't be going out to eat to celebrate mother's day tomorrow.. my mum can't eat anything else besides porridge and light stuff cause she's got to go for a op on her intestines. =/


nonetheless, i can't wait to give her the potted fern..


hokay! i guess either my brother wasnt that bent on teasing me about a blog, or he didnt notice the obvious when he navigated from my blog to his game cheat site.


somehow i think its the former cause he did it twice.


its making me nervous...

relieved

strange enough. i'm feeling happy..


i dun have to think about it nemore~ =))

riiight

im turning nocturnal.. i wonder if i'll turn into a panda too. but pandas arent nocturnal, and they're furry and cute..


hah. [refer to title]


the only time i won't fall aslp while trying to study would be about after 11.. thats not very healthy hor.


after effects of 'ling shi bao fuo jiao's..


i wonder if i'll get like premature aging of the skin..


i've got nth better to blog about.


translation area: 'ling shi bao fuo jiao's = 'last minute studying's

locked out

ahhaaaaaas. i just got locked out of the house...


the wind blew. the door slammed. and there i was, stuck outside with my rabbit.


i still felt helpness even though i knew my neighbour had an extra key with her. but that was until i got the key from her. god bless her~ shoo lucky she was at home.


hahas. just brings me to why she had the key with her..


i went out to meet my sis on that day and made the biggest wrong move--not bringing my keys. so then i found out she had no keys either. so that brought us to take shelter at my aunt's place nearby. then my parents came home. and you would think we would be saved... but nooo. they had no keys either. so in the end we had to call my brother. which resulted in him taking a cab all the way from buena vista to simei just so that we could go into the house.


haha.. so now my aunt has a key and so does my neighbour..


anyway heres an unrelated fact of the day taken from some magazine...


Do you sleep too much?
A 10-year study of more than 7,000 adults found that people who regularly sleep more than eight hours are more likely to suffer strokes. "It's likely a sleep-related disease such as sleep apnea," says Wayne H.Giles, M.D., the study's coauthor at the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. "Its the disorder that causes fatigue - not the extra sleep itself that increase the risk of stroke." Napping counts too, he says.


"its likely a sleep-related disease.." i doubt any of us has that disease.. haha.. so sleeping that bit more wouldn't hurt...

after flipping through my past year chinese compos, i've realised that my compos havent improved that much.


how sad.


i've always told myself i'll read those chinese compo books but i never get to it until the paper's like tomorrow.


i shouldnt have left the 'jiang education' tuition.. it was really pretty good. which i only realised now. kay lah.. 3 days ago.


oh well.


i always thought chocolate doesnt do too bad at cheering ppl up.. but guess not.


today i ate up the remaining bar of kinder bueno which tasted much happier than the day before yesterday with half a glass of full cream meiji milk.. after returning from an icecream trip at siglap.

• two big scoops of ice-cream
• with whip cream topping
• a bar of chocolate
• half a glass of milk

hah. what alot of calories.. and guess what? im eating pizza for dinner.


i guess what i burned during the 2.4 run this morning's going to be returned 2 fold.. or 3. or 4...

man. i can't help but feel as though i'm extra. it sucks but.. what the hell. do you guys have any idea that it actually makes me sad?


i'm like absolutely paranoid that my brother would walk into the room and see me blogging. haha..


today's summary sux. or rather i sucked at it. got way under the word limit, hope i didn't miss out too many points.


sigh. i'm like starting to miss playing merry widow and singapore rhap. wanna thank sandy, mavis and jolin for the flowers. haha.. although i'm kinda late. and wanna thank jiaxin and melissa for the chocs and the note. haha.. really going to miss you guys too. still got brisbane trip! haha.. so not that bad yet. wanna thank ruiqi too, and the sec 3s for the rock. haha.


man. i hate it when i have so many thoughts in my head.

it's quite sad

i need a movie buddy. ansley ar! rather go home and sleep.. haha. but yimei.. i've got nothing much to say. i'll get over it lah anway. kinda my fault too lah huh. what i need is prolly a classmate buddy too..


i'm going swimming later~


i'm still feeling kinda sick from that big sip of packeted chocolate soya bean milk. and it was two hours ago. yeah. so it sucks big time. don't ever drink it! it made me feel like puking.


haha.. i'm so a failed blogger. the diary is prolly better for me.. then again maybe i just need some more getting used to.


i wonder where did "prolly" come from..

why..........

do i always get the flu blues..
the watery eyes and the uncontrollable sneezes.


haha. not all the time but its bad enough.


today's thursday.. 3 more days to finish my hw.


i need a haircut.. its been lets see... august04 to march05.. how many months le? haha.. I can still vividly remember that my last haircut was on national day. In a rush i pulled on a red shirt and a demin skirt, and when i got onto the train i realised half the ppl there were in red. How embarassing. I guess they were on their way to kallang. Oh well. I look patriotic what right.. haha.


hmm. quite shocking ar.. That more students need counselling and dunno how per cent are suicidal.. haha.. but i was half alsp during the news anyway.


I'm still feeling too lazy to link more ppl.


now thats seriously some paragrahs with absolutely no link.

starter

i've finally decided to put this to some use after letting it sit around since november the 11th last year..


hum..


to what use i've not quite yet decided.


well. seems like a lot of things are happening that i don't quite have a clue about.. but i don't have to let myself feel insignificant.


anyway i'm so glad the weathers showing signs of change before everybody gets cooked.


i can't think of anything else to write.. haha. so much for a starter..


oh yar.


today i was watching some show on animal planet, bout this lioness in africa who adopted a baby oryx, which is some antelope, and "took care of it". so poor thing. the oryx couldn't get milk then the lioness refused to hunt and eat. they assumed her pack got killed by the tribal ppl living there, so she was traumatised and confused, and also being surrounded by hostile lions, desperation drove her to lose her instincts and adopt an oryx .. pretty saddening actually. she kinda protected it, followed it around, and even called out to it when it went missing. there was like some kinda bond going on.


anyway it lasted for like 14 days before some lion ate up the antelope. after that she adopted like 3 more baby oryxes before disappearing. but none of the oryxes lasted as long as the first one..so poor thing. lioness obsessed with baby oryxes.


see lah. what we humans have caused.


haha.. so that's about it.. i haven't finished linking ppl.. and my tagboard is so freaking out of place.