*poof*

it just occurred to me that perhaps FOCUS is about all i need.

raAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!

i've been gone for quite a while and the first thing i'm doing on my comeback is screaming.

but that's basically what i'm feeling right now.

i wrote a bloody essay on it!! and all i could say was "money can be used to feed the starving. money can be used to buy medicine for those who need it really badly. money can be used to help the cold and shivering out there."

kay. maybe i said more than that but its bad enough.

i wrote a bloody freaking essay on it.

"money can be used to feed the starving." ahaa. i hope they did weren't listening to that.

[money perse isn't the root of all evil.]

i wrote that in my essay and where the hell did it go. hai.

and i didnt give an overview of the picture. i prepared it but i didnt say it. whywhywhy.

que sara sara. whatever will, be will be. the future's not our's to see...

doesnt quite answer my question but whatever.

anyway the conversation question was "money is the root of all evil. do you agree?"..

yeahyeah.

i don't grab opportunities well enough...



its about time to change and stop procrastinating. its so sick that i find myself finding excuses. but isnt that what we all do.

run away.

maybe thats just what i do.

i should look on the bright side. theres that tiny voice in my head that says maybe i didnt do that badly. although that woman kept frowning.

but i still need to change and have more determination anyway.