Sunday, July 02, 2006

the after effects

i fell ill. and missed my bloody chemistry paper. the one which i spent 3 days studying organic chem for. had flu. fever. nausea. all that stuff. last sunday. its kinda also cause my sis spent 56 or so bucks on the doctor. and the mc. it got me ridden with guilt cause i might have just been as well off without seeing that old doctor.

he didnt even tell me exactly whats wrong with me. the only sensible thing he said was your throat must be quite painful. thats about all i rmb. and that i had a vein popping out of my neck. according to sis, he probably thinks i was just trying to "gegg" an mc. looks weird. ahaa. whatever.

on the topic of the JuneCommonTests, looks like i wouldnt be getting the training suspension since it was just meant to be a scare. can't wait to see whether it'll be the worse i've screwed up for an entire exam. but still i really hope i'll somehow pass.

and i'm balding!!!! aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. its no longer a figment of my imagination cause even my brother says so. and as he says, its because of all my late nights, and stress, and sth about hormones. the only consolation i have is at least he didnt notice it out of the random. he only said i was balding after he took a second look after i asked. apparently he was balding too after a period of time he kept staying up late when he was about my age. or sth like that.

AIK. i'd better start slping earlier..

brazil's out. england's out. :(

Thursday, June 22, 2006

bloody blogger deleted half my half time POST!!!!!!!! ARGH. WHY?? damnit.

and it keeps the lame last line and deletes everything in between. -___-

half time.

"messi! waiting for the support to arrive in the middle. its still messi!"

"this is messi!"

"its now messi."

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it took me a while to realise that the commentator didnt mean that the tackle was messy. nor that the game is messy.

i swear one of the spectators has that squeaky tongue thing we bought in brisbane during the band trip.

for half the games i watch, i find myself rooting for the underdogs. aha. other than during the brazil-australia match. i think ronaldinho's my favourite brazilian player. aha. good feel about him. in contrast, ronaldo looks as though hes going to retire soon. poor guy really. all the criticism and media pressure he's under. he shouldn't have gotten himself so fat.

still feel sore from missing the england match yesterday. i can't believe im staying up for this match when i didnt stay up for yesterday's. i spent like an hour trying to search for hints of any repeat telecast on SCTV. but the whole damn site was in malay. which i thought was indonesian, but the fact that any word (2 actually, tayang and permain) i quoted from the site into the online indonesian-english-indonesian dictionary resulted in a no entry was found that matches your word told me otherwise. and i finally conclude that they have no repeat telecasts on SCTV. not that the search for any word that looks remotely like encore or repeat on that site told me anything. i should have just trusted that site which kinda tells me theres no repeat broadcasts.

the prospects of passing midyears looks reeeally dim now. lets see, not much left to cover. just bio and econs.

ALL of it. plus half of chem.

need not think about taking h3 anymore. aha. might just be a blessing in disguise.

i should think of half filled cups rather than half empty. even if it seems like its much less than half filled.
its much less stressful to just accept it and stop trying to cram everything into my head in one day. a 2 week ban from training will conserve me energy. >< style="font-style: italic;">messi looks a tad bit messy actually.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

its killing me. inside out.

times like these always makes me think about those choose-your-ending kinda storybooks i read when i was a kid. the kind that gives you several choices on what the main character does.. then you flip to that page. and you can always flip back to read what the other choices leads to.

with life, i can obviously only imagine. can't quite find the words to pen my thoughts down. its just that it feels quite hard to move on. just wanna let my buddies know, i think about yall all the time.


ON TO OTHER THINGS. kinda just got back from malaysia. about 4 days ago. from the expedition with the climbing club. the waterfall we hopped around on rocks across the water and trekked up for looked like a fairytale. the kind of fairytales bambi lives in. the mist, the trees, the grass... looks like the kind of backdrop they use in jurassic park movies too. without the lizards.

but the peak we trekked 5+++ hours up for was so.. nothing like what you would imagine would be like on a mountain top. the air was so still, the space so small, and everything around over the edges was white. it felt like we were in a film studio. with the background to be graphically inserted.

anw it feels good to be home. now everytime i wanna dream of a place i can dream of the waterfalls.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

nth-better-to-do

i have this sudden impulse to scream. out of the blue.


its either one, i lack sleep. or two, i'm stressed. or three, i've gone mad.


but i've had so much slp during the these 2 nights. so it can't be one.


kay this is really pointless. even if i complain all about my tutorials and how i never seem to be able to finish them. especially my chemistry tutorials which i never seem to be able to get about doing even 1/4 of it. aike. i so need a study timetable.


oh ya. my sister's fallen in love with sayomeds. the dog breed that looks quite like the japanese spitz.. and i have a feeling i might be hearing about how cute they are for some time to come..

Sunday, April 30, 2006

AAHH. YI MEEI, ANSLEY. I MISS YALL SO MUCH YALL KNOW TT? QAZIM, CELIA, everybody. yanyan. kiatyun. jelisa. and jazreel. they are such joy. and i seriously wonder how's yvonne doing.


hai. i hate it that i miss out so much. but life still goes on.


:) it's been such a long weekend. i like~ and next friday most probably would be a holiday too!!!! yAAY. that means next week is only a 3 day school week!! hahaa.


hmmm. kay i know i wanted to blog about sth a few days ago, but i can't quite rmb what.


i watched Sin City today. which was such a fantastic show. very interesting~ graphics were extremely cool. would have been so worthwhile to see it in the cinemas. what with all the "comic book effect" effects. and alexis bledel, the gilmore girls girl, was acting as one of the hookers. ahahha. but she still had tt bit of innocence factor. and elijah wood was acting as a nerdy-looking woman-eating psychotic silent kong fu kicking killer. literally silent since he didnt say a single word throughout his appearence in the show. he was wearing these reflective glasses and was so geeky that i didnt even know he was elijah wood until i read the credits. hmm. i dun get what josh harnett's character's suppose to be. all he did was shoot a woman at the start and offer alexis a cigerrette at the end. bet he had less than 5 mins of appearence put together.


i better stay up and do my tutorials. tmr's going to be a play day... and all i've done these 2 days is 3/4 of a simple AP math question. >.< OH! plus edit my PI. lol. but its still not under 500 words..

Thursday, April 20, 2006

volatile

now i know what yimei, ansley and all those around me during the past years in tms have gone through. my bloooody classmates keep telling me my voice is so TEH. at least once a week, they just have to say it.


whatever la. like i'm purposely doing it.


ahaa. its only when i raise my voice. at least. i hope.

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yesterday we were singing-cum-shouting nursery rhymes and chinese songs at the parade square, around 8 pm in the night. retarded. but it made the PT so much more enjoyable. haha. but i couldnt follow along any of the random chinese choruses.


and the sun was setting before that while we were lying there on the damp dirty gravelly parade square floor resting from the leg-lifts. and there was the blue, purple, red and orange, blended in whisps of clouds, over the school fence and seemingly far far away at the edge of the sky. very breathtaking. hadn't seen a sunset like that for a long time, esp one while lying on the openspace floor. or maybe its just that i havent seen one for a long time.


life would really be so much easier if i were to join band. no blisters no torn skin no exposed nerves after the skin's torn. no lying sweatily on the gross canteen floor. hahaa. PLUS i'll get to improve on my oboe playing.


but i'd think that theres no more turning back, however much i miss band. i could get used to it. defy gravity. :) plus the people are nice.


daaamn. alumni practice break till like 16 may. =X thats like FOUR WEEEEKS. omg.


kaaay. no freaking out. even though the psycometric profiling results said im volatile and i freakout in stressful situations...


xhee hooo xhee hooo.


does that sound like breathing in and out? ahaa
maybe blowing on the reed will prevent tone deterioration to some extent...

Saturday, April 08, 2006

reminiscing

seems like i have a tendency to blog only once a month. =X

i miss the times we all hang around after school. yimei, ans, xw, lek, royce, celia, qazim, brian.

i miss it so much. i miss YOU GUYS so much. and somehow i feel like i miss yimei the most cause i can still feel our connection.

i feel like im going to cry. i can't seem to write much cause all i end up doing is thinking bout all the times we had each other by our sides.

there were so many times i wanted to call up yimei but only to end up realising its too late in the night when i've finally finished my work.

its not that i dun wanna call up ans, but chatting with her made me feel hurt. tho it was only that one time, i really dun wanna feel it again.


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seems like the friendships i've made in tj seem none as warm as those i made in mj. maybe it hasnt been 2 months yet. aha. have to have some faith.

eh yanyan. kiatyun. yall go out must call me kay? even if its out to study. but tues wed and fri can't cause of cca. =x omg. i forgot bout the mj soccer matches... i so need to ssee yall online.

i need to work on my inclined pullups. dun really wanna get kicked out of climbing. but its so sickening that the kids dun play at the playground but play at the fitness corner.

tj's oac training was horrrid. that one i went to 2 saturdays ago. the seniors seem so cold. other than that few. dun feel like blogging bout it le.

my classmate was saying the abrasions i got on my knees from doing pushups on the road was cause i stood under a tree and pretended to be a ghost that alpha house function night. and there are supposedly child spirits in trees. haha. o well. if it was true i hope its happy redy.

i looked like such a sad case really. haha. not being able to walk properly for like a week. and EVERYBODY looks at my wound. on the bus and on the way home. lol. then they have that weird look on their face.

aha. just makes me think about how my wounds were "pussing" that day after the stupid pushups. and the pus was like sluggishly trickling down. tts how serious it was kay. k, i can't really call it serious at all compared to ppl who stepped on land mines. it probably was infected. by the sea and stuff, contrary to ppl saying that the sea water is suppose to be antiseptic. unpolluted sea water would probably be antiseptic. not east coast park sea water. and everybody was itching when they got into the sea. it was so amusing cause everyone was scratching themselves. haha. now my knees look like they're balding.

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im so glad theres alumni practice. =)

Saturday, March 11, 2006

one month later..

my comparison table's alignment is all off.


i miss MJC lotS. at TJ everythings green and old.
but with all the classrooms air-conditioned, i could get used to it.


i miss 06S302.. alhena 3.. yanyan, jelisa, kiatyun, catherine.. galvin, wadi and the rest.. <3


but its pretty good at TJ. after i dragged myself through the first two days of orientation.


really saddened that tj's o night clashed with mj's campfire last night. i wonder if they had a full reunion.. excluding me.
it clashed with the hair salon competition thing too. and i probably got him disqualified since he couldnt find another whos willing to sacrifice her hair. =X
can't help thinking what if i actually could've done it. runway walk. doesnt it sound exciting? i didnt expect my dad to object really, since he had actually offered to write a letter so i could skip school and keep my hair a day more, after their photoshoot. now i can't go back to darken my hair. damn. no more one yr free hair service. :( maybe i shud just be thick skinned and go back to dye my hair. ahaa. maybe i shud have tried harder.
i hope the apology was enough.


looking forward to life in TJ. which i have to anyway, it'll be two years.
i hope theres eyecandy aplenty. aha.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

i've got 5 days.

now who in their right mind would have thot i wouldn't get a 6 for my combined humanities when i only had enough time to write one line for my 13-mark-essay, and my facts might not even have been right, considering the last time i read that sri lanka chapter was like 5 months before the exam.


i was so relieved i wanted to cry, when i saw the tabulations that the lowest my class got for combined humanities was a 3. i was soo so happy. esp when the whole class was so happy.
i bet they lowered their A1 band to like 60 marks.


but when i saw my result slip i was feeling all neutral. and the only thing i was thinking about is: now i have to decide. i really dunwanna break yimei's heart. nor piss her off.


YIMEI. i really really love you. like a whole lot. till the ends of the earth. but WILL YOU FORGIVE ME IF I DUN END UP IN SA?


now that im leaving MJ, i realise how much i love things in MJ.
like mr yeow and ms soh. they're like the greatest bio teachers ever.
and dr alfiani. the most fun-loving, exciting and interesting teacher ever.
and the wonderfully nice PE teachers. ms seah? i forgot. >.<
what if things in MJ is better than TJ. what if the teachers in MJ are actually better.
and i can't really bare the thot of going to that old school, esp when MJ's all nice and new. (other than the leaky walkways)
and i'll miss the eye candy.


now really. whats in TJ thats pulling me over? just because they're top 5? and jazreel might not even be there anymore. =((( major sadness. oh ya. the distance and convenience factor. for once in my life, i need not change buses to get to sch or home from sch. HHMMM.


i've never really thot i would acheive my examination goals.=]
i probably was too afraid of disappointment. but at least i aimed high. even tho i din expect high.


jialin's comparison table
ST ANDREW'S TEMASEK MERIDIAN

pros: [FACTS]
  1. band is good 1.good school 1.nice clean toilets
  2. big new school 2.teachers are good
    3. relatively new building
{FEELINGS}
3. fun 2. jazreel? 4. teachers n ppl
4. yimei n ansley
5. uniform


i've got no time. i shud just do it on paper. i'm going to cut my hair to sth exciting. i shud stick with instincts and go to T.


WOOHO. im finally going to get an exciting hair cut. other than the when i cut off more than half my fringe before vogue. >.<
they're going to dye my hair. but i'll probably have to have them dye it back anyway. how sad. i hope it doesnt spoil my hair.


and no im not stupid. at least not that, cause i dun really have to pay for it. its a haircut they're doing for a photoshoot cause my sister's fren working at a relatively high end saloon, is looking for a looney girl who'll let them cut her hair into sth wacko.


wish me luck.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

wooohoooho.

tmr's the day. dunno what to feel really.

oh man. just read my previous post, to be reminded of the dilemma i forgot bout.

"leave it till when O results come out"

and now its here. but you know what? i bet i wun even get 11 pts to get into SA. so i should save the trouble worrying.

i reaaally REALLLY miss yimei. and ansley. and yvonne. and everybody else..

i know i should call ansley to catch up. but somehow she sounded like she had sth better to do the last time i called her eons ago. hahaa. and she didnt recognise my voice. but i think i was having a sore throat then anw, which i choose to believe.

ppl ask me how's life in mj?
and all i can really say is its not tooo bad.

during school's not bad. but after school's plain boring. cause everybody seems to go home after school. other than if they're having cca. but i love my bunch of cg mates lots tho. didnt have to hang out after school to be having fun..

band. hm. when will the stress be gone. lets just say now i feel like joining something else like badminton.

hmm. tmr'll be a hell'ofan exciting day~~~~

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

school.

i'm ill. again.
flu. sore throat. then nausea.


missed orientation today cause the OGT said i had to go home. o well. didnt get to tour the school during the csi game.


sux (for a lack of a better word) having a sore throat. argh.


yesterday after school i hung out with one of the weirdiest bunch of people to have come together.
sabrina, galvin, ben chow, fanglu and ryan. but it would have been weirder if fatin and hidayah joined us. or rather if we joined them to go eat at long john's instead of yoshinoya.
then after tt a fren came to join us. before going to meet some juniors.


seems like he couldnt be any happier to be at CJ, as he went on about the girls there. and how theres a lack of shaui guys, which made it all the better. haha. but he says the girls are mostly very. urm. girly.


hai. t'was so sad tt we couldnt meet up. i havent watched narnia. yimei. yall watch redy not? i wanna watch leh.


i think the jeff corwin experience is suuuch an entertaining show!! everybody should watch it! hahaa. right. random. and i hate the crocodile hunter.


ANYWAY, met up by coincidence with a couple of primary school classmates at MJ. rani was like people say tt that girl theres very pretty. -point-point-
then she turns around and i was like OMG. REISHA. haha. yea. her skin is so freaking smooth. and yea. she's pretty. hahaa.


kingajoo. a member of the racoon family. sooo freaking adorable! haha. im watching the jeff corwin show and blogging at the same time bytheway.


i'm goiing to miss MJ badly when i do go over to st andrews. or IF i can/do. MJ is sooooo much nearer for me as compared to SA. i'll save like 2 hours of travelling everyday. somehow i get a feeling that these hours will be important when assignments and projects roll in. BUT maybe it may prove worth sacrificing...


dilemma. but i should leave it to when O results come out.


rather surprising to find out so many of the new meridians i met had st andrews as one of their choices before meridan.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

headline news.

I SAW ANSLEY ON THE NEWS.

the news 5 tonight at 9.30pm just now.

hahaaa. they were saying sth abouthow much trash accumalated on the streets of town during countdowns or festive celebrations. and tt ppl dun throw rubbish in the bins cause they're having too much fun to rmb to use the bins. and then they were showing footages of those streets, with some ppl still on the streets having fun. and there was ansley.


it wasn't tt obvious it was her actually. i didnt even take notice until she laughed. haha. qazim and others with her during the christmas countdown were probably there too, just that the footage wasnt long enough for me to see who was around her.


they were standing along the road waiting for a group of blangas to walk thru.
and when the blangas did, they sprayed them with the foam in a can thing.
thats when ansley laughed, and i thot she looked familiar. i was so surprised i couldnt help exclaiming out loud omg. wanted to call yimei to share my 'excitement' since i was msging her before that but nobody answered the phone. so spoiler. haha.

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the isetan sale was so bloody crowded.
and its called a private sale. -.-
but sales was up to like 50% i think. so can't say it was unexpected.
my sis says during sales people shop like everything's free. which has a little bit of truth i guess. haha. esp during the zara sale. the shop's usually relatively empty. and all of a sudden its filled with ppl rummaging thru messes of clothes for sth so tt they can get a piece of the 30% discount.
hmm.. but 30% is
actually quite abit.


this post wasnt actually posted on 1st jan. haha. a fake new year post. half was written on new years day and half on 4th jan.