everyday I love you less and less

and so tuesday is here.

hmm.

I'm holding on because of what I think is there. 

But its not there. 

be it whether it might  have been remotely there in the past or not. certain things feel strange when i think about it. I'm not sure if the lines had already been drawn that we're just friends and always will be just friends. But i'm fine with it:) the conversations we had, i had always thought it felt like there were on the basis of "all we'll ever be are just good friends" anyway. but adam and the othrs seem to have complicated it. whether out of context or making it clearer in context, or blowing certain aspects out of proportion from what there originally were - insignificantly small.

it doesnt matter whether your heart was broken from that 3 times lah. i'm just unsure why it was raised in the first place if it didn matter you know kangsheng.

So i've let it go. 

Cause i know what i'm here for.

And you're not it.

just like how i'm not what you're here for, as you've conveyed.