its hard to say i'd rather stay awake when i'm alsp, cause everything is nvr as it seems

crystal. it clearly feels like a rebound and you know it. sigh.

time to put things into proper perspective.

brother says to keep a distance and stop fufilling the rebound girl role. thats generally the idea he's putting across anw. if he's not treating me as rebound he would still show interest even if i stop fufilling that "she's-so-caring" role.

chris is a good friend. can the line be crossed? will that be weird. it feels like it'll end up like sis and kailun. really. he's giving. i'm guilty? really there shud be no feeling of guilt if i were to enter a r/s. but it really kinda feels nice and comfortable. but i clearly know i feel he's a very good friend. so can the line be crossed?

kang sheng is the one with the spark. but i'm just not sure if he's the one if he hadnt showed the interest at certain points of time i felt was significant. everybody i've spoken kinda rules him out. other than kor tt is. he didn't comment at all.

brother says its the chemistry that's the most important. so did peizhi. brother: once you're good friends, there's no more spark.

had a good talk with yuanjing and steph nonetheless. yesterday night. feels like i've been spending too much time thinking about unnecessary things anw!

3rd place btw. for Sim Bouldering Championships 2010.
love it. it brings across a lesson of discipline to me. i need to refocus on studies.

but i can't help but wanna love. but who? its got me confused.

is kangsheng really ruled out because he missed my event. sigh. kang sheng what are you thinking. guess its nth much since you might probably be refocusing on studies.